my words... my say

This was written more than 5 years ago.... how time flies. If I were a rich girl…. How I wish I’m rich… Not so that I can spend it on living the high life, but more because I am able to help those in need… It has always been my dream to have loads of money, and to buy medical supplies and food for those people living in 3rd world countries. And I always think it’s ironic how one could spend thousands of dollars on bags or clothings and how that amount of money could save thousands of lives instead. It is my goal to earn as much money as I can and retire in Africa helping those in need, be it people or animals. I am leading a comfortable life right now, and for that I am grateful. I am grateful that I need not worry about ongoing war in my background, I am grateful that I need not worry about not having food at all when I am hungry, I am grateful for having a job to help pay my bills, expenses and occassional trips overseas. I want to be in a position to help, and to help tho...

Very interesting to be reading back my old entries at www.m8bel.wordpress.com Made me realise how much I have grown and also what are some things/views I need to retain. A timely reminder. xoxo, Mabel

The truth is, I'm glad the relationship was over. I didn't realise how poisonous being together with him was and how stubborn I could be to hang on to something that wasn't meant to be. Being with him was comfortable, too comfortable that I persuaded myself to give him many chances even though he clearly does not deserve it. All the self reasonings I've put myself through is enough for me to write a self-help book.  The moment where I realise I should never settle for someone who brings out the worse in me is the best decision of my life. I do not expect someone to bring out the best in me (because that has to come from within and not from someone); the least I expect is not bring out the worst in me. It feels liberating to get away from a toxic relationship and take control of my life, finding back my own happiness. The choice is ours, whether to continue a cycle or break away from it. I am just so happy that I decided to step out of my comfort zone instead of taking t...