This morning I was going through my insta stories and saw Tony Gaskins (I love this guy) ask me a question session. It was so informative, and an eye opener to see so many people airing their relationship issues. It put a lot of things into perspective, especially seeing things from a 3rd party POV.
Seeing what sort of advice all of them are seeking, the answer is already very glaring, but they are blinded by it and chose to ignore it. The same happened for me. The answer was glaring when I expressed my feelings a few months back, but I chose to hold on. Well, no more. When I finally opened my eyes and see things as what it is, I felt, free.
Free from my own demons, own insecurities. And I felt ready to move on and focus on something else. What I have learnt is that true love never leaves you doubts and sadness. I have to learn to think for myself.
On that note, I have decided to take a break from my DB team. Reason is very simple. It is a toxic relationship, one that limits my growth instead of making me grow. I have held on for the longest time because of the people inside. But I have come to realised that not everyone is a team player, and this truth is very glaring when the team is not gelled together. Everyone is saying we lack a TM this year, that's why this, that.. They failed to realise what failed the team is themselves as individuals. Everyone just thinks for themselves, not for the team. Too much ego play and sneaky moves. As I say, one indeed sees the picture clearer when they are out of it. So yea, I am done trying my best for the team when everyone is not on the same page. There are more things I can do with my Sundays other than be pissed off at every single training.
Peace out,
Mabel
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