Skip to main content

changes to environment = changes in people?

I have been feeling really sick and tired of work lately... Not so much on the job scope (it's really mundane and sucky but I'll survive), but rather the people I face daily. These are the people I literally spend the most time with, sometimes even more than my family members. Basing on the number of hours spent in the office, my office is like my second home, and my colleagues like my second family, so it is really important that the work environment is one that I like to be in.

I like to be surrounded by positivity, people who are harmless and good natured, people who always look out for one another... but it seems like I'm not really getting much love from those in the office. Not me personally, I still get along well with all, but rather I am sick of seeing one department fighting with another, and people not as helpful as before.

In the past we are a small team and we work well helping one another as much as we can. Now after the expansion and merger of departments, the bond is no longer there. As much as I would like to help, sometimes I couldn't do so just because I used to be one one particular department and by helping, others may see it as me being bias because I am suppose to be on neutral ground now.

I don't like how whenever I talk, it seems like everyone is listening. However my department behaves, everyone is noticing and commenting. Everyone thinks we are so damn free because it is the low season and they expect us to help because it is their high season. What happens when it is peak season for my department? None of them will be able to assist because what we are doing is very specialised. You don't see me complaining do you? I have nothing against helping, in fact I am all up for it. BUT what I couldn't stand is that instead of asking nicely, people throw sacarstic comments and expect us to pick up the hint. Oh come on... don't treat it as if we are deaf or blind... and don't treat it as if we are still kids, because we are NOT. We may be the youngest department in the office, but we are all working adults. Hate it when some of my colleagues talk as if they are talking to kids. Don't talk down to people, please, where's the respect?

My colleague whom I used to work closely with is becoming more and more like a stranger to me at times, which is sad and pathetic. We have our differences but I can be very tolerant, and I have been for years. However, some of the remarks she is throwing out is more and more unbecoming of her, especially for someone of her status (Regional Director of XXXXX). I am dissapointed because that is not what I had expected from her.

Also, more people means more office gossips and there are also some people who tend to play politics. Hate it hate it hate it!!! If you have time for gossips, it means you have too much free time, hence there is no excuse for saying you have so many things to do.

I am afraid I might reach a point where I will just drop it all and blast everyone. Everyday is becoming more and more dreadful. I just hope it's just a phase for me and everything will settle back down to harmony.

xoxo,
Mabel

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Musings of the day

This morning I was going through my insta stories and saw Tony Gaskins (I love this guy) ask me a question session. It was so informative, and an eye opener to see so many people airing their relationship issues. It put a lot of things into perspective, especially seeing things from a 3rd party POV. Seeing what sort of advice all of them are seeking, the answer is already very glaring, but they are blinded by it and chose to ignore it. The same happened for me. The answer was glaring when I expressed my feelings a few months back, but I chose to hold on. Well, no more. When I finally opened my eyes and see things as what it is, I felt, free. Free from my own demons, own insecurities. And I felt ready to move on and focus on something else. What I have learnt is that true love never leaves you doubts and sadness. I have to learn to think for myself. On that note, I have decided to take a break from my DB team. Reason is very simple. It is a toxic relationship, one that limits my grow...

Lemons

Life have been handling me lemons recently and I find it very hard to make lemonades out of it. Why am I feeling even more lonely now than ever </3

Don't follow blindly, create your own!

Let me be honest here. Ever since coming out on my own, I have been struggling with finding a routine that I can adhere to. I am constantly stressing out, thinking I am not doing enough as a wannabe entrepreneur.  I always read articles about top CEOs starting their day early, catching only 4-5 hours of sleep a day, planning their day ahead with a routine and sticking to the routine. They are always on the go, multi-tasking all the time. Over time, I've come to realise, that is not for me. Sticking to a routine made me stressed out over unnecessary things, made me frustrated thinking I am not doing enough.  The truth is, we are all different, and we work different. I like to procrastinate if I am given a long timeline. I like to be in a pressure cooker environment where I am swarmed with deadlines, and that is also when I perform best, with sudden spurts of energy to get things done. But once that energy is released, I need time to space out again. Yes I agree tha...